I always tried, growing up, to see if I felt different in certain moments of time. Such as when the clock strikes midnight on my birthday or when it strikes midnight bringing in a new year. Does that one second really feel different? No. Not usually. And that one second isn't truly that significant. But seconds can be significant. In fact, in one second our lives can be completely different.
For the last few months, 6 perhaps, there has been more overwhelming hatred for 2016. It has proven to be a very hard year. I have seen the death of my grandmother, the death of others dear to my friends, rape and murder scattered throughout this world like salt on a wound, natural disasters leaving thousands dead, and the tipping point of a nation that can't seem to get it right.
And as I wax nostalgic, I cringe at the bad, shake my head at the dumbfounded, but then remind myself to embrace and celebrate the good. Because in the midst of all the not good...there is good. There will always be good. Sometimes it buries itself deep in the muck and mire, but I promise you it does exist.
Through the gruesome, I found births of first babies, giggles of first loves, walks of couples newly married, determination of strength, hope for something brighter, and my own sense of engagement.
Last year, on New Years, I pretended as though it was my last year as an unwedded, unengaged, unbound, person living for what I saw before me: myself. It has proven to be sort of as I pretended. And then somewhere in the midst of the seconds my life lived, I found myself choosing to bind my future self, body and soul, to another. That moment...when I said, "Yes, I will marry you." I might not have meant it as I do now. I might have just seen it as seconds of next steps. Now, I see it as a desire of the future with this particular one that God chose out of the 7 billion people in the world to love me.
Seconds. They do matter. The last breaths, the "I dos," the the first breaths, the "I wills," the monumental moments that made this past year what it was...happened in a second. The 31,536,000 single seconds this year changed us. Some of those seconds made us better. Some made us worse. Some made us stronger. Some brought us to our knees. But they all mattered.
Let us remember that we have 31,536,000 seconds this year to embrace all we can and give forth peace where we can't see it and love where we don't feel it.
Peace and blessings, my friends, in this new year. Give it all you got. Because in one second your life could change forever.
For the last few months, 6 perhaps, there has been more overwhelming hatred for 2016. It has proven to be a very hard year. I have seen the death of my grandmother, the death of others dear to my friends, rape and murder scattered throughout this world like salt on a wound, natural disasters leaving thousands dead, and the tipping point of a nation that can't seem to get it right.
And as I wax nostalgic, I cringe at the bad, shake my head at the dumbfounded, but then remind myself to embrace and celebrate the good. Because in the midst of all the not good...there is good. There will always be good. Sometimes it buries itself deep in the muck and mire, but I promise you it does exist.
Through the gruesome, I found births of first babies, giggles of first loves, walks of couples newly married, determination of strength, hope for something brighter, and my own sense of engagement.
Last year, on New Years, I pretended as though it was my last year as an unwedded, unengaged, unbound, person living for what I saw before me: myself. It has proven to be sort of as I pretended. And then somewhere in the midst of the seconds my life lived, I found myself choosing to bind my future self, body and soul, to another. That moment...when I said, "Yes, I will marry you." I might not have meant it as I do now. I might have just seen it as seconds of next steps. Now, I see it as a desire of the future with this particular one that God chose out of the 7 billion people in the world to love me.
Seconds. They do matter. The last breaths, the "I dos," the the first breaths, the "I wills," the monumental moments that made this past year what it was...happened in a second. The 31,536,000 single seconds this year changed us. Some of those seconds made us better. Some made us worse. Some made us stronger. Some brought us to our knees. But they all mattered.
Let us remember that we have 31,536,000 seconds this year to embrace all we can and give forth peace where we can't see it and love where we don't feel it.
Peace and blessings, my friends, in this new year. Give it all you got. Because in one second your life could change forever.
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