I had the amazing experience to go to Kitt Peak and stand on top of this majestic mountain. It is on rare occasions that I feel so small and unimportant. Like today, I felt so tiny.
As I was driving below the mountain, awaiting to make my ascention, I stared up the 7000ft mountain in complete awe. I knew that in less than 30 minutes, I would be on the top gazing down on the valley.
Just imagine, being in a valley surrounded by the grandest of mountains. Now imagine scaling one of those mountains and being in what feels like complete control, only knowing that you are just a blip on the radar. I kept thinking about the something bigger and how insignificant I send to the rest of the world, and yet, how truly important I really am. How we are.
It is so easy to see the vastness of the grand experiences or the grandness of those things that make us feel so small and forget what importance we hold in another's life.
As I was up there, in the quiet, I just kept thinking over and over...I am loved, I am important, and this mountain proves it. Am I making sense? It's 2 in thr AM, and I am running on a short supply of sleep. If anything, the pictures are pretty. :)
I could have really used the sun today. You know that feeling between being in an okay mood and being in a not so okay mood? Well, I am there. And, I know for a fact that the sun would have pushed me to the side of okay...or maybe even taken me to great. No sun today. Just grey, blah weather. I hate it! It makes me doubt things. It makes me create things in my mind. It makes me think of the demeantors breeding bad juju. I need the sun. Today has been more of a blah day than I have experienced in a long while. The weather isn't just hazy, I have become haze. The weather isn't just dank. I have become dank. The weather isn't just cold. I have become cold. So much so that the phone I answer at work would better serve me if thrown through the window in front of me. So much so that the cell phone I keep in touch with my friends would better serve me if broken. SAD: seasonal affective disorder. I think most people know what this is...
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